Plus one... Another year passed by... Never been a sucker of parties and big celebration ever since, most probably because I don't have anju, time and I didn't ever celebrated my birthday in an expensive way. This year gone the same way. Stayed at home and I'm with my family the whole day. We gone to cast our vote for local election (the one I voted didn't win, likewise with the national... Am I a bad omen or what?! Toinks!, then my dad just prepared a special meal and my little niece blew the cake for me. When your such in a grown up age, you tend to realize how blissful and carefree it was back when you're younger. All you have to do is go to school, do homeworks, participate to some extracurricular activities, and give your parents good school grades. I terribly miss the times that I thought having a perfect score in a school test can save the worl from terrorism. When I thought after finishing school everything will go according to what I've planned. The idealistic persona pushed me wanting to grow up faster so I can solve every adversity that i'll encounter in a snap. Sadly, reality slapped me back and forth. It didn't go my way... I don't want to keep on ranting on things that is beyond my control. Who says life is fair anyway?! And as the saying goes, "No one dies a virgin! Life fuck us all!". I'm a person who make mistakes most of the time, that makes me human. But i try my very best to learn from it since life is an endless learning process. Yes, I have share of sleepless night plotting on my future plans. Some of it happened the way I wanted it, while some in blueprints caused me some begging and the rest of it... still waiting for it to unfold or maybe it's just really a dream. Dream that you can only have when your eyes are closed and travelling in dream land. I maybe planned for everything but I know He has a better plan. Better than I imagine, greater than my dreams. Once in awhile sadness conquers me but i tried not to be eaten by this loneliness, so if you'll see me laughing and smiling, I'm having the battle with myself. A fight for my happiness since i believe it's a choice. Cause even life sucks it gives us the simple pleasure in life that keeps my sanity. Although I aced most of my test back then, terrorism didn't end, it continues and it seems that "the end" is far from anyone's grasp. If and only if, each one of us can be caring enough to understand each other. It will be a better place to live in... BOW!!! Happy Birthday to me! Alak pa! CHAROT! oohh and by the way... Felt so much love on my birthday!! I'm so thankful for my family and sweet messages from friends!! Mwuaaahhss!